Big Brother housemates, Angel and Arin, got quite emotional yesterday, August 4.
Angel broke down recounting her past and her mental health and fellow housemate Arin was there to comfort her all through.
Angel said she felt guilty for the way she treated her great grandmother before her death and she blamed herself for her death.
Recall the time Angel introduced herself to the housemates, narrating her story to them, about her mental health struggles, her past and guilt and of course her suicidal attempts.
Angel, while in her mood yesterday, recounts the things she did leading to her old woman’s death.
Arin said, “You can cry and it’s okay to feel this way but you can’t give up on yourself. It’s supposed to be tough in this way.”
“I feel so bad for myself because of something I did. I feel that it’s because of how I treated my great granny that’s why God took her from me,” Angel cried.
Arin who was close to tears herself said, “Angel, you were ten. How could you have treated her? What could you have done? I don’t understand. You yelled at her when she pooped on herself, okay?
Angel replied to her, “I feel so guilty. Maybe because I’m older now, and I have more awareness, so I just ask myself, ‘Why did you do that?’ ‘Why were you lashing out so bad?”
Arin told Angel to forgive herself. She went ahead to advise her about the need for a better therapist outside the house when she gets out. Arin said she is still young and she should use the best of it.
“I know you want to make up for it but because she is dead now, you’re feeling that guilt. You actually have to forgive yourself and I don’t think you can do it on your own because this is not something that occured in a silo and it’s okay to feel this way,” Arin said.
Arin called Angel “a strong woman” countless times, telling her some women twice her age haven’t had such experiences so they can’t tell but Angel is a survivor after everything she’s been through.
Arin said, “Your mum tried to abort you, then she had you. Then you took care of your great grand ma when she had dementia, you were depressed, you were suicidal, your first and only boyfriend died.”
Maria joined them in the process and tried her best to comfort Angel as well.